pink,blue&white

*This account is told through a text message conversation I had with my sister. 

Me: I just wanted to smell pretty...

Krystal: And you don't?!

Me: Like a tropical beach beauty.

Krystal: Hahaha!!! Like a coconut 

Me: So i went to Bath & Body works

Krystal: And...

Me: I bought things to make my dream come true.

Me: And now now I am attach to thing I can never hav31 (have)

Krystal: Nooooo! You didn't buy it!

Me: No I did. Just to see how it would feel to have my dream in a bag. 

Me: And now I just stare at it and realize that I cant afford my dream.

Krystal: Nooo! You can you can

Me: Nope I cant. I cant have the dream to smell good. It can't be done. Not today. 

Krystal: Hmm lemme smell

Me: Nope. After I hold them in my arms and cry sweet tropical goodness. They are done locked in a cage. Called my dream sucker. Aka back to the store they will go. 

Krystal: Nooo how much did you spend 

Me: So much I have to take it back :(

Krystal: Like how much

Me: One billion dollars!

Krystal: Stop! Tell the truth

Me: $45

Krystal: Hmmm not bad 

Me: False $47.50

Krystal: Hahaha

My roommate came home she looked at me sitting there on the floor with my new smell goods. I told her my sadness and then I cried. 

Silly Girl

I think I am really angry RIGHT NOW! It's either that or it is that I went running this morning and I am now running a fever, I don't know if that can make you sick... can it ??? Anyway I pretty sure I am MAD!

I think it's great when someone decides to inspire you but ...what if that suddenly stops.
And along with that support went a friendship. Well I am here to tell you that it SUCKS!

I wasn't going to post this but, It goes perfectly with taking on a dream AND  I think one day I will look back and I will be stronger. And say HAHA I proved you wrong!

I wish I could say that I am not the one in wrong but indeed, I am. I held on so much to what they had to say that when it was up to me, I crumbled and lost sight of what I really wanted. I kinda let my dream out the widow. Ah silly girl.

But, today is a new day! I have felt this anger before today but, today I have ACTED on my anger. And I let go of it, I have seen my problems and I know that someday I will forgive, and this will be something in the past but, today oh today I am MAD! Don't get me wrong I am not mad at the people or myself, I am mad at this situation and that I haven't done anything about it until right now.  I am happy that I am angry.... hahaha real! I am going to let this fuel me and my dream until it runs out and by then I will have nothing to be MAD at. Well, at least I am going to try, and I can't be mad at that.

Well what else can I say, I am going to write these feelings away.
Love,
Karli Marie

p.s. Sometimes you need different kinds of fuel for A BIG DREAM