February 14, 2012

A stir in my soul...

HAPPY Valentine's DAY my LOVE!!!

It's February, and things have changed and things stayed the same. Amazing things that have happened this week so far.These events have been the spoons to set my soul in motion. 

1st The Grammy's, they always set a realistic prospective about accomplishing your dreams.

2nd IT is always WORTH IT!!! No matter what, pain, heart ache and confusion. It is ALWAYS worth it in the END.Even if the end isn't near.
  
3rd My soul has been stirred by music... but,I haven't had music moved me lately and then it hit me. It so beautiful and simplistic. 

Last night, I was trying to convince my body that it was okay to fall asleep, when I realized that my life is controlling me and I am not controlling it. I like patterns in my life something I can repeat. But, I am a very complex human as much as I like my structure, I like to throw myself off balance. In a way I test myself to see how much I truly can handle. I am a weird soul.Anyway... I realized that I am not in the place I want to be to work towards my dream besides,of course dreaming it. 
I then continued to think of how I can reschedule my time and life to throw a curve in my some what balanced and unbalanced life, so that I can accomplish my GOALS. So I decided that I need to start making sacrifices for the things I love 

"You will never truly love something unless you have sacrificed for it" 

I don't remember who said that but, it stuck with me. I don't want to be a hypocrite. I am proud of myself and what I have accomplished in my life but, I know I can do better, I can improve myself. 
Last night, with my tired brain,I thought YES!! I know how I can do this waking up earlier I can get enough sleep if I go to sleep at 10:30 and wake up at 5:30 and by doing so I can accomplish so much more in my day so I tried it today.. yep it didn't work out so well. So I will continue to attempt to wake up early...we will see what happens. 

If you any of you have any ideas about how I can better myself with my scheduling let me know. :)

Life is all about learning and we make sacrifices for the things we love. 
Love, 
      Karli Marie